Wednesday, January 30, 2008
grumble at him for being so busy
complain about him not calling me often
dislike him for walking ahead without me
whine at him for snatching the game with me
protest to him for not allowing me to watch my shows
think that its such a pain to get him out of the bed
i really miss the times
but i don't have the chance to do so anymore everybody told me..
that you would leave me
and yes you did
everybody told me..
that you would hurt me
and yes you did
everybody told me..
that its not worthy
and no, i disagree
hugs from mandy@1:41 AM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
some thoughts
life is a journey
be is a smooth or tough ride
we all have to go through
many obstacles along the way
be it career, health, or love
be glad that we have our parents to fall back on
be glad that we are free from all illness
love is the toughest to handle
purely feelings
love brings two strangers together
it can pull them apart likewise
how does it feel
when two party are in love, and cant be together
its a real pity
its a tough act
strong on the outside, weakest in the inner
wearing a smile on the face, and tearing in the heart
dying to salvage the relationship, but nothing can be done
wish each and everyone out there happiness
in all aspects of life
to all couples, love hard, true love never dies
the rest, hope the love cupid's arrow will reach you soon
((=
hoping to receive your call
wanting to see you
yearning so much for you
praying for us to be back again
but it isnt easy
i hope our love is as easy as 1, 2, 3
so there wont be complications like now
if you would know how my life is, without you
life is affected
alive without soul
mind is running about
heart's with you
till then
i love you
still
hugs from mandy@1:46 AM
Monday, January 28, 2008
YOU DON'T KNOW
finally, did some shopping. someone commented on me, "i thought she always shop whenever she is out?" true to some extend only luh huh. LOL! bought my boyfriend's tee! bought a 4-inch heels, setting my eyes on a 5-inch heels now. ALDO never fails to catch my atttention. ( : spent somewhat like few hundred bucks this weekend, i am so broke. met my mr.bean, ha, he did it again, making me go ha ha ha the whole night. all i can say, the FFU is a fun and crazy bunch to be with.
someone enlighten me,
"if you fall, what's most important is you must stand up stronger than before
of all things in this world, love is the most difficult to handle, becos it is never predictable"
but nevertheless, i still hope that he can be happy everyday. only knowing that he is contented with his present life, only then, i can be happy. if not, the happiness shown on me isn't from the within.
making this sentence true,
as long as the one you love is happy, and very naturally you will be too.
you don't know
how i feel
living my life without you
you don't know
what its like loving you all these time
i'll give you all my love
heart and soul
giving it all for a chance
now that i need you the most
you don't know
hugs from mandy@1:40 AM
Friday, January 25, 2008
LOVE
Maybe love is like luck.
You have to go all the way to find it.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud.
It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker.
Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life.
It bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust, intimacy and interdependence.
It enhances the relationship and comforts the soul.
Love should be experienced and not just felt.
The depth of love can not be measured.
Love can be created.
You just need to focus on the goodness of the other person.
If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily.
And remember we all have some positive aspect in us, no matter how bad our deeds maybe.
And as God said “Love all”
It is us, the people, who have forgotten the meaning of love and have undertaken such gruesome apathy.
We need to understand each other and must always remember that no body is perfect.
Be together, share joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need.
And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection.
Love is expressed when you are being someone who loves someone for who they are, not who you think they should be.
Love is looking past imperfections in your partner and seeing the beautiful person inside.
True love seeks the happiness and well being of your partner.
Love expresses itself in the mutual respect you demonstrate to your partner.
When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't Love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still Love you, they Love you even more.
Love is always forgiving.
hugs from mandy@4:36 AM
ONE DOWN
finally... cleared one more module. thanks loads to cindy. (:
they said, i'm immature
they said, i'm stubborn
they said, i'm silly
they said, i'm hopeless
they said, i'm sick
they said, i'm listless
i say... i want to follow my heart
and love you
trying to make myself busy every minute. going everywhere except home. its real tiring, very.
video conference was stupid but fun.
chomp chomp with you guys are great.
chinatown flooded with decorations, stalls, people was super hot, a must go place for cny?
long waited sakae sushi was best.
body#19 was scary, but okay, good thai show.
gogo franks prata sausage is a yummy must-have. :D
babies are a real cutiiee.
changi nasi lemak was hmmm, okay.
lastly, road to j.a.r was where i wanted to go, to be at everyday, but with much objections, i cant be there.
i want to be a director.
director for my own movie.
no no, its our movie.
to erase the latest, and start it all over again.
script, plan, action.
take everything in just one go.
just two actors.
you and me.
no one else.
no believes.
no arguments.
no wondering.
no guessing.
no predicting.
no separation.
just the love.
trust.
respect.
commitment.
of ours.
hugs from mandy@1:50 AM
Monday, January 21, 2008
面对面坐着的是不是你
爱情还在不在进行
想问你是不是想要放弃
却害怕你也在问自己
分手是我们唯一的话题
却没有人愿意提起
如果一开口变成了结局
我的心就会离开身体活在过去
爱不爱结果都叫人伤心
我不知道该怎么做决定
分手应该是要先哭泣,还是先忘记
你是否也有相同的难题
你的勇气里有我的命运
我不知道你会不会决定
我想我现在还不够清醒
该爱着你,该离开你
还是继续--逃避
hugs from mandy@10:17 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
and i woke up another day, without you.
i know i shouldnt be missing you, shouldnt be thinking of you, shouldnt be waiting endlessly for your call, but i just cant control myself.
maybe we have really reached the end of our story.
went to fetch chanmun from airport yesterday, had some nice prata dinner before he went home.
journey home from 3monkeys was a quiet one. had a real hard scolding from adrian for all what i have been doing, thinking, questioning that shut me real off.
i know what everyone of you wants me to do.
and i know you all are thinking for the good of me.
but i need time. i really need.
please.
i am so lost.
dont give up on me.
i'm sorry, especially to adrian.
did what i should to make myself happy, also did what i shouldnt.
katong laksa on thursday was one of the best.
Okays, facial time now.
be back with more photos.
lastly, happy 21st to hong & 22nd to my dearest sister!
hugs from mandy@10:24 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
!!! went school at 9am, but when i stepped in, i dont have to attend lecture! diao ge came to fetch me, went for my sudden craving for dim sum breakfast-lunch, then headed to yishun to look for my dearest E*. LOL! watched e last episode of 黄金路, yes! headed back to school at 1pm, was informed by my classmate that there is no presentation! what e hell, wasted half of my day travelling, ARGHH!
i wanted to eat all that is in this metal trolley thingy, but too full. (:
NEXT TIME ALRIGHT! hehe.
i dint eat my egg tart.
i miss HK's egg tart.
):
what's leftover that we cant finish. one fact we dint finish it: NOT NICE!
so very satisified! (((:
alright, chalet was fun, heard i was drunk, dont think i am. LOL! supper that night with C*, A*, M* and all. wanted to eat one mouthful of everything, C* dont allow. supposed to share e white carrot cake with C*, but i ended up eating more of e black one. it taste much better! ((:
had breakfast with e birthday girl - Evelyn, N*, W*, and J* on sunday morning, ordered a whole lot of food, including black carrot cake. LOL! switched car to drive with W*. love auto car la! GPS is one of e best thing ever produced! lol anyways, very filling breakfast we had.
hugs from mandy@12:14 AM
Monday, January 14, 2008
EVELYN'S 21st birthday photos!
hugs from mandy@3:22 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
hugs from mandy@3:18 PM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
phil gave me some good talking which i needed very much. thank you.
and more and more of it please.
i think i wasnt drunk last night. am i? thank you brendan for walking me up. music at MOS was good. but what's best, phuture. cos' it feels like home. LOL! can i say its a coincidence? met wilson at MOS while dancing. apparently phuture tickets were sold out yesterday. wilson bunch were drinking like there's no tomorrow. but its nice la huh.
alright, like e pictures do e talking.
i am e
3rd. ((:
my boys.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REEVE! ((:
went town before heading to MOS, meeting my mr.bean; never fails to crack some super lame jokes that keeps me laughing like mad, and all, rachel, peh, xiaojun, xian min and another guy, i don't know his name! and one very important guy, jiaozbeanz. LOL!
spent somewhat like 80bucks on my nails. all i can say is e manicurist is so very good at upselling. anyways, i love it still!! ((:
hugs from mandy@1:13 PM
Friday, January 11, 2008
yo, this is a long post. mummy, daddy and sisters went out town today, and i have e car for this weekend. LOL! happy happy. ((: initially wanted to invite him to stayover at my house tonight, but god's forbidden or whatsoever, we had a quite a peaceful talk last night and decided what might be e best for us which is to go our own ways. much unwillingness to hang up the phone cos knowing everything will come to an end once the line is cut off, but fuck this is the reality is a fact we both have to accept. i wish you well boy! loves*
zouk was fun! i was drunk, as usual. love getting drunk, hate hangovers. ha. neverending flashlights coming from S* cam. yet to get e pics! before e party starts, some guys dancing with super big dance moves knocked over e waiter delivering some flaming lambo, toppled the glasses and pour the drinks on us. what e fuck, killed much of e party mood already. guys almost got into a fight, while us girls continue dancing; how nice of us. i managed to survive school on thursday despite having much hangover from all e alcohol and all. claps for me. LOL! hope C*, P* and S* survived through their school and work too. love you all.
post more pics when i got them! meanwhile, this is me back to singlehood. be looking better then before.
MOS tonight? get drunk baby. lastly,
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY DAUGHTER, EVELYN!
hugs from mandy@3:22 PM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
some random compilations when i have nothing to do! ha. i know karine is gonna suan me for all these. LOL!
hugs from mandy@11:15 PM
