Thursday, May 8, 2008
you're e very best friend i had.
since my younger days..
you taught me things that i should know.
we did e rights and e wrongs.
you were there when im at my lowest.
i was there for you too.
you told me to go for what i really want.
and i told you that too.
you became e pillar of my life.
we shared laughters,
we shared tears.
we were together,
we were apart.
physically back together,
emotionally apart.
e bond's isnt strong enough.
i feel shaky.
uncomfortable.
and down to e word, probably..
jealously.
forgotten.
you've new well bonded group of friends.
that forced me to think..
and accept,
that i might not be as important as what i used to be.
i chose to be nonchalant.
deep down inside, its hurting so very badly as days goes.
day by day.
and its getting e hold of me.
you are e first friend to see me cry.
you are e first friend who cried for me.
you are e first friend who contacted me when im away.
you are e first friend to scold me for not telling you my family problems.
for these,
i'm touched.
by you.
for all these,
i can drop everything on hand to go to your help.
i buy your favourite soft toy whenever i see one.
i buy your favourite cinnamon danish back all e way from china.
people say, 'picture speaks a thousand words'
not that true.
like you, i made new friends.
but are we that close?
like you and me?
you thought so.
but its a NO.
how can someone you meet for few months compared to one who has been with you for years?
it might be possible for some.
but for me,
it's quite impossible.
AND...
we exchanged thoughts.
with us telling eachother how we feel.
i told you my background reasons.
you told me you missed me. e old me.
your sms-es make me cry.
all these months, your no-actions make me feel that im long forgotten.
you topped my best friends' list.
till now, you still do.
i hope this exchanging of stern sms-es between us is e final time.
i've said whatever i've in mind,
and i hope things between us are as clear.
i hope that we'll go back to what we used to be.
i hope to share all happiness, sorrows and e usual gossipings back with you,
again.
like what you say, a True Friend.
i hope we can.
its your birthday today.
i hope i dint spoil your day for all that.
AND..
if you're reading,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE.
after all these years, this name still belongs to you.
and it will be forever.
(:
i pray all e best in e world for you.
love you still.
hugs from mandy@4:08 AM
